I love the most amazing man in the world!! Even the gods on Mt. Olympus look upon him with envy.
I know what's so disorienting to me, lately, finally....
It's that I'm merging with someone.... I feel like I'm becoming one with the one I'm in love with. I never knew it was possible... or never even imagined that love could be felt on such a level. I will not struggle against it. Instead, I wish I could have known this when I was younger. But, I accept that everything had to be in its place before it could happen.
I'm going to just quit worrying that I'm being obsessive and just accept that this is OK and that I can go with the flow. Love doesn't have to be rational. It's OK that we think so much about our lover when we're in love. If people didn't think so much about their lover or love their lover so much, there wouldn't be beautiful poetry or stories.... or music. All I can say is that it's nice to finally know what has moved so many people to write such things.
All I want to know now is.... how much time goes by in the falling in love stage and being in love stage before I return to sanity? LOL
I am slave to my gender and human psychology!!
I am starting to realize just how driven I am by both of these things.
What does one do? Just accept it and go with the flow? Or fight as hard as I can against it?
Oh god I'm so in love.
Please, anyone that's been in love, tell me how it was for you. Tell me if you thought about the object of your love 'round the clock, and cared deeply about their well being, and wanted to see them happy, took interest in their interests, wanted to please them, wanted to make love to them....
The good news is, my love knows how I feel and is not at all frightened off by my feelings. In fact, my feelings are reciprocated and I can't think of a more wonderful feeling in the world. It's so intense and this love and this man are the centerpieces of my universe.
My man is a Real Man, and is very knowledgeable and skilled in the ways of completely fulfilling a woman. He is highly intelligent, loving, compassionate, strong (very strong!), caring, dedicated, devoted, forgiving, attractive and so much more.
OK, I just had to brag a little bit.
And I still want to know about others' experiences with falling in love. I admit I want to compare to see just how normal and rational I'm being, but at the same time I know that what we have is unique and simply that nothing compares.
I found my soul mate.
(Don't worry.... I'm still sane. LOL (if I was to begin with that is....))
What I mean is, I'm not going to go graffiti his name all over the walls or anything, but I truly, on a sane level, believe I have found my soul mate.
Now, don't ask me whether or not the idea of a soul mate in general is sane, because I don't know.